Pathetic

I'm not trying to blame him for making me feel as though I was enough.

I'm just so confused at myself for being so dumb and for everything I did. From my last case, I've promised myself that I wouldn't let a guy become my whole world again but look now. I don't understand how I got attached, though.

look, I know what we had is over, but its just so hard.

It's hard when I really get to know this person; his personality, his secrets, his fears, his fave things, what he loves, what he hates- literally everything and then I have to go back to being strangers even when I know anything about him.

I mean, how am I supposed to be fine? most of the love I had in the world went to him. I gave all of me.

he was my home. He holds all my memories. All of them, from times when I was too proud to listen, to times when I was too scared to speak. I've felt my happiest and saddest with him.

he was all my nights and days, regardless, he is my home. he is the hands that carved me.

can you even imagine how pathetic it makes me feel?